It is 2:20 am. I plan to call in sick tomorrow. I have been saying this to myself for over 2 weeks now. I figure the only way I can do it is to stay up late drinking then when I wake up at 7 I will acctually feel bad enough to the point where I wont feel obligated to go to work. I still feel bad. But I do need this? It will be good? What is truely the worst that could happen? I get fired?! oh no!!! psh that would be a good thing I need a reason to get my lazy ass out of there. I just need someone to push me. Everyone seems to have that additude like it is good for me. Is it good for me to work somewhere that I don’t like, doing something I dislike just becuase it is OK money? and becuase it is what is expected of an adult? Meh. nope.
In other news. I am playing three shows tomorrow. One at the Aquarium. All ages with Any Day at like 7:45 ish. and then two at Rascals. one all ages. one 21+ both with What The H?! then I might hit up Madonaroma at the 21+ show at the aquarium. But I might just have people over at my place. I haven’t hung out with minors in a while. It would be refreshing.
I need this weekend to be great. I need something to hit me so hard, so hard, that I can’t get up and look at things the same way. I need to take a step back and really change things. And even though this has been said by thousands before me. I really hope I do not choose to fall into the cracks that all the others fell into and just ignore. I need to be bigger and do something better.
John and I had a great time tonight. Talked about a lot of great things. I love that kid. I really never got to know him before he left for sweeden. I am so glad he is back and he and I are getting a chance to hang out. He is becoming a brother to me. truely wonderful.
Thats all.
Sorry that was random and scattered.
Later!
